I wish to meet you as strong as I am, sure-footed yourself, happy yourself, laid-back and vainless. I wish to invite you in my nationless land, where the map is drawn up with a pale pencil for changing the borders easily, to name the places in our manner in our secret alphabet. The other day a friend told me that he can precisely draw the picture of his perfect beloved. I don't believe in the exclusive charm of the physical shapes. I believe in the shape of your heart and in your stalwart will to play it fair. My taste is chameleon.

I know I am riding fast. But I know that during the quietness of my sleep at night I am fragile as a child. And I would love to be wrapped in your legs, when your deep breath and resting heartbeat lull me peacefully. When your spirit knows that he can go on without me but wants me for the pure sake of love out of any necessity.

I know I am brave. But I know that I am not fearless and a single dog bark can lift my heart up in my throat. I don't want you to play it courageous racing with me. Be courageus on your own account. It is not a win game. It is a game of the pleasure to share without feeling yourself someone's other half. I don't want to match you. I want to feel the savage happiness of putting a ball into a square hole without anyone's sanction.

I know I am inconstant. But the path of my life is not mapped out and we have to accept it that decisions driven either rationally or emotionally are the most interesting part of life, which give us nothing for granted. Just don't be afraid to choose or to be chosen. Most
probably I will drop out of love someday. Before or after you. Nothing in me and you is timeless. Coincidences happen there, where a timeline exists. Let me love you now, where now is at the moment of speaking.

"Don't stay too long in the shadow of observation. To be an observer is the illness of the wisdom one should overcome. This world is to interact with." says a fellow from Jordan the only night we met and shared a precious bottle of wine and one of the most profound conversations in my life in the desert.

I knew he was right but keeping myself aside was a pleasant and requisitive feeling in my life. My East trip was all about silence, lack of social life and observation. But I was a total outsider back home as well.

Brazil makes me blossoming out. I start feeling in love again. In love with the people and places, with the passion in between, with the surprises behind the corner, with the strangers in the night, with the sand stuck in my curves, with the sparkish impulse of dancing and singing, with the beating pulse of other hearts. I creeped out of my shell and all fibres of myself is anticipating the miracles of this life on earth to mark me, to lead me, to love me.

Enough of keeping my heart away, enough of being temperedly prudent, enough of the permenant partiality for being reclusive, enough watching the life from the observatory of my subconscious fear of being rejected. If you want to see someone, just grab the plane, boat or bike and see what will happen. The globe is like a football – you can play with it and there will be always someone to play with you.

Tu abres as tuas portas.
Eu abro as minhas pernas.
Nós abrimos os nossos corpos.

O coração não é aberto.

I wish I had a camera to storytell tru it. Words are not desired by me now.

Tigermilk by Belle and Sebastian.
Windy nights and hot, sunny days.
Couchsurfing.
Sunburnt.
Dragão do Mar e Praia de Iracema.
The ocean and the ships.
Thoughts about love and you, where you is everyone with a constantly changing name.
Diadorim and Riobaldo.
Tranquility.
And Faith.

It's gonna work out.

Мили приятели,
Благодаря на всички, които се включиха в благотворителната акция за дома за деца в Тайланд Give Kids Hope Home. Събрахме 440 лева, което се равнява на 300 щатски долара, вече преведени по сметката на дома. Мога да уверя всеки, че парите ще отидат до цент при децата и нуждите на дома. Сумата не е голяма сама по себе си, но всички вие сте. Защото многото става от много малки, събрали се заедно. Благодаря ви!

Ако имате желание да направите самостоятелно дарение, това става лесно и безболезнено чрез paypal: Donate for Give Kids Hope.

Dear friends,
Thanks to everyone, who took part in the charity event for the children's home in Thailand Give Kids Hope Home. We gathered 440 BGL, which is approx. 300 USD. The sum is already donated and I can assure everyone that the amount will be allocated properly for the home's needs. The amount itself is not big but you, guys, are. The big is where many littles come together. Thank you.

If you, yourself  would like to donate it is easily done via paypal: Donate for Give Kids Hope.